It’s not all bad, I promise…
What a year? Somehow, we’re pacing our way through October and I just don’t know where the time is going. This week I tweeted that if in January you’d told me that in October, I’d be living in a Global Pandemic, working from home, back at my main job full time. Over a stone lighter, the joint owner (is that the right word?) of 4 beautiful chickens and running a 25min 5km again. I’d have laughed, it sounds so far-fetched from reality, yet here we are.
This year has been tough, I’ve been frightened, stressed, incredibly anxious and felt so incredibly high, yet so very lost and low. I’ve been forced to open boxes I’d kept far locked away, I’ve found the strength to stand up for what I believe in. Plus, in some cases, let go of what’s not serving me. For example, I never imagined that a few months back I’d take a break from part time blogging and content creation. Of course, I’m still going to continue sharing my words with the world. But right now, I need to follow a different path, even if just for a short while.
I’m learning that change is okay, it’s not the end of the world, and that no matter how frightening and overwhelming it might feel. Nothing amazing will ever happen in my comfort zone and we all need to evolve every once in a while. It’s just how life goes.
Truth be told, I was pretty hesitant to talk about my weight because I’ve written endless articles to encourage self-love and self-acceptance. However, this is part of my self-love journey and I need to keep on working to create a healthier long-term balance between my body and my eating. A side result of this is that my weight has changed and right now I’m happy. But I’m not tied to a number and I’ll settle wherever feels right. It might be higher and it might be lower if I’ve learned one thing? It’s that my value is not a number. Even though it can feel like that at times.
When it comes to my fitness, I’ve written about this in more detail here, I was recently injured and although it was frustrating, I was reminded of the importance of gratitude. It’s a complete privilege to be able to train, we shouldn’t ever forget that, even if 2020 has sent some of us backward? Let’s just remember to keep on moving, it’s not how fast you go, it’s about not giving up.
Life is short, I’ve been continually humbled by the sheer grace and strength those around me have displayed in the past few weeks. Whilst, other people’s tales of grief are not my stories to share, it acts as a constant reminder that the time is now. Today I sat at home and worked in the softest jumper, one that I might normally save for “Best” and beautiful jewelry, why? Because the time is now.
That’s why we’ve expanded our family and now have 4 beautiful chickens to look after, it brings me so much joy having my morning coffee whilst watching them start the day. I love how they run over to greet us, the fact we’re learning about their little personalities and I think they might be my spirit animal. Why? Because they are always interested in food, have a lot to say, and flap around at times.
Anyway, that’s enough of an update for now.